One of the greatest challenges, I find, is holding on to hope when things go awry. Moreover, it’s difficult to be patient and understand that while things don’t always make sense as they’re happening, they tend to make sense when we look back.
Last week, I interviewed for my dream job. In short, the position consisted of writing about celebrities, interviewing sources and attending a total of three events per week. While I won’t deny that the description of a hectic schedule briefly took me back to my position at the advertising agency, I felt different this time around, a good kind of different. I’m nearly finalizing my novel, so the timing seemed right. Plus, I saw unlimited possibilities. It could mark the beginning of a journalism career and possibly lead to broadcast journalism. Needless to say, this interview helped me verify what kind of career I want to have.
I walked into that interview determined to give it my all, and I walked out convinced that I had indeed given it my all. I showcased my writing portfolio, an elegant black book containing the pieces I’ve written for LatinTRENDS magazine. I updated my “5 Reasons You Should Hire Me” brochure (utilizing my new brand name) to match the brand’s mission, “5 Reasons I’m The Right Woman For The [Job].” And, lastly, to top it all off, I created two sample posts in the voice of the online publication I was interviewed for. I added images, sources and hyperlinks the same color as the ones used by said publication. When I say I went hard, I mean it.
Last night, I received the email, an email I’d expected after the dreams I had the night before.
In my dreams, I almost drowned. Both times the water was pristine. I woke up and googled the meaning of drowning in a dream and discovered that drowning represents obstacles, challenges and tests. If you’re drowning in pristine water, then that’s symbolic of God, faith and spirituality as a whole. I interpreted my dream to mean that I wasn’t going to get the position, that more challenges lie ahead, but that I shouldn’t lose faith. It was a clear reminder that while this is one tough journey, I’m not alone.
I won’t deny that my heart sank when I read the rejection email, because I was, after all, interviewed for my dream job. Still, I trust that what seems right for me now may not be the right thing for me after all. (It’s happened to me before with personal matters.) I trust that there is something better out there for me. I trust that this will help make me an even better, stronger writer. I trust that each step, each bump in the road and in each low in this [career] roller coaster, is God’s steering. I will end up where I’m supposed to be. And so will you. So, if things aren’t going your way, trust that it’s because what lies ahead is even greater than what you’ve envisioned.
Don’t lose hope. Trust the journey. And whatever you do, keep dreaming!